Here is a thing I have noticed. It is this - if something good happens about which I am pleased and excited then, soon afterwards, I start to feel the opposite. For example - yesterday I received my SmartPass which means I now travel free on all bus and train networks within Northern Ireland. I put the paperwork in six days ago and was told it would take three weeks. It was six days. So I was feeling pretty good. Now I had the freedom to go wherever I chose. It certainly fitted in with my intentions of Getting Out A Bit More.
Then, the very next day, this thought entered my head. "You are sixty years old and what have you achieved? You're never going to amount to much now. Thought you were going to write something decent. That's never going to happen now! You haven't even made a start on that patchwork quilt you were saving fabric for!" Of course I put this negativity far from my mind. Sort of.
Ach well. What is the point of beating up on myself? I had a lovely day with my girls today and I made some wine and cleaned out a couple of cupboards. I created a good dinner. Tomorrow I shall make plans to use my SmartPass. I'm thinking of maybe going to Belfast to observe the protest. Or perhaps I could go visit the City of Culture. I wonder which would make me feel more positive about life?
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All my other friends are bi-polar too, so I would not be worrying so much. Tomorrow will be up!
I read about an interesting photography exhibition in the city of culture - can't remember the guys name. Maybe you should have a look at it - London Sister
Yip Brighid. Up and down all day. Ls - I went to Belfast. City of Culture next time! I'll check that out.
Mary Wesley was a lot older than you when she started writing. Definitely go for the culture.
I did think of Mary Wesley but she is much ruder than I'd care to be.
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